5 April 2011
{begin song}
I am fine
all alone
Yes, I'm here
all alone...
Never you mind that noise surrounding
relaxation...
transcendence...
calming solitude
interrupted
ring, ring, ring
pick up the phone
ring, ring, ring
the Cowboy's in town
... the Cowboy's in town.
{end song}
And it's a buck-wild
ful-filled ride
higher than the
top of the Franklins
Five days in a row.
I took quite a blow
Suddenly sick
He immediately
takes the blame, sayin'
'I didn't do it!'
transcendence...
I'm beside myself
with a headache one day
hay fever the next
I'm shivering hot
shivering cold
he was funny
now it's all getting old
I'm in my home
he's not in his own.
the Cowboy
like a toad
squatting.
making mine his own...
Meanwhile,
my physical being
in bed
draining...
draining...
Drained.
I'm not hungry
no more headaches
nor fevers.
laying down
my head
atop a pillow
eyes closed...
I float
I fly freely...
{chorus}
Never you mind the noise surrounding...
relaxation - solitude...
silence...
Interrupted.
Cowboy laughing at the TV
It's dinner time
he should be hungry
I'm not hungry
I have no pain
I feel nothing
But I've got issues
of the internal kind
my temple's been damaged
organisms are struggling
to keep this vessel alive.
I don't need to hear it
I Don't Need To Hear It
I DON'T NEED TO HEAR IT
No!,
Tu callate, pendejo!
And get me the food I need.
Run the errand to earn
your stay
or suffer the humiliation
as a close friend
may be on his way...
The Cowboy goes...
silence.
calm.
I feel different
better than my usual self.
I gave the Cowboy his bill
he got skerred,
and got a job
faster than I ever can!
... Bastards!
... Beaurocrats!
... he could be lying, too.
He's in,
and then out
In, and then out...
When I sleep,
I am fine...
I wake --
four days in a row
he's not been here.
but his freshly laundered shirts.
his funky porn,
his truck,
saddle,
and expired permit.
I'm here, just fine.
He's gone, just fine.
Why's his stuff here?
abandonment?
I text him
he's mighty offended
so ignorant
Where's your sense of urgency?
Where was mine?
I need to eat!
drink lots of water...
I lost 2 lbs.
dropped 2 pant sizes
carrying the stress
of the Cowboy's belongings.
I text him.
the truth
the law
He's mighty offended.
You have a bill
I have debts...
in 24 hours...
he's in -
all his stuff out.
Hot-headed
Cold-hearted
I've been calm,
just fine.
relaxed,
worry free.
But when I sleep...
- Transcendence -
...
I transcend -
I'm asleep in
someone else's apartment?
I move to get up,
and I'm back in y home.
Sleep...
this place's lights are blue.
I get up...
instead I see the orange one
shining through my curtains.
I'm here, but I'm not.
I am here.
But I'm not.
I am here.
But
I'm
Not.
